Loner's BLOG

2011-05-18T21:13:00.002+08:00

My dearest Kevin,

Thanks for everything. I appreciate you, spending your day with me, though you had a lesson which is not so important. Paying for my expenses today, making sure I enjoy my day. Thanks again, I love you always laogong:) You're my one and only and forever laogong:)

Love,
Your dearest Claire :)

2011-04-26T19:08:00.002+08:00

Decided to post!:D Since i very long never post and its been quite awhile since he last posted:)

Hmmm... He's school started for 2nd week le... I heard he made 5 new friends, which is he's current clique:D I'm glad:) Can see he's enjoying he's poly life much more better than secondary:) But still not used to getting study. Of course, I hope he will get used to it soon~ :)

Can't get him off my mind and heart... Miss him so much:( Love him alot too!:D Hehehe, alright, I'll see when will he update again:) Sayo!:>

2011-04-07T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hellos~~ Went for Poly Orientation today.. It was so much better than expected... its a whole new environment, feeling... The Orientation was so much different than Secondary School's Orientation... It was fun... But something was missing... My phone was so silent... And i have no one to text when i'm bored... I really miss her... Hopefully Friday will pass quickly... Then she'll be back on Saturday...

Miss her lots lots.....

2011-04-05T13:28:00.001+08:00

been quite a long time since i posted.. doubt anyone reads this anyway... well.. just update since i've got nothing to do... Life's been boring so far... Working and working... waiting for the start of Poly... so yeah, wanted to go back to my secondary school to help out... it seems i was far too strict and fierce on my juniors.. the teachers didn't like it.. got someone to tell me not to go back.. and yeah, Claire Lee Pei Xuan is still my Girlfriend.. Love her lots lots...

2010-12-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY BAOBEI!! ^^

Its he's birthday ^^ But he have to work, oh, i very long never come post le eh:) Nothing to say, hope he have a happy birthday today:) Times flies, he's 16. Officially:) in 5months time its gonna be me getting older. hahas, we are all getting older... Hahas:) Ciaos!!

Stay happy kayes dear?:) Congrats on founding your 15th wish:)

2010-11-14T14:29:00.003+08:00

I tried to ask him to post le, but he don't seems to care D: Well, post since I very long no post le. He's 'o's over for 2 days le. I have yet to get a chance to meet him, to be with him. What a life. CO camp was so suckish. Haiz. Seriously, camps and practises coming up. I really dunno sia. No idea if I'll have enough time to accompany him... Anyways, latest was that he can't go for what NCC course... But I'm glad he thought through and will go for the 60th:) Er yeah, I'm glad so... What else...? Actually nothing le bahhs. Just don't know when can i meet him... There's CO tmr so tmr's definitely out. So will friday. Next week even worse. haiz. See bahs.. Hisyam say he will jio us out, but hopefully will be tues or thurs bahs. Wed night not free.. D: Aiyoyoyo. I very long no go out with them le D: okay lahh, will try to get him to post some time later, at least i posted, so its currently not dead? :x ciaos

2010-10-24T18:56:00.002+08:00

Hello:)

Helping him post:)

Can't believe it. Like last year just know him then boom! 'O's liao. Can't believe how time flies D: oh well, main thing here is just to wish all Sec 4s and 5s

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR 'O'S PAPERS:) JIAYOUSXZ:D

So yeah, shall end here. I will get him to post on 14 nov if possible:) ciaos:D

2010-10-15T19:12:00.003+08:00

Yes, its time for me to update this dead blog of his. hahas:)

Well, he's graduating on monday, stress up currently, heading out daily to study. hahas:) Actually i dun really know, cos i busy with my studies, he busy with his studies.. LOL. Actually, i really dunno wad to say. lols. Yeah so time just flies past, all sec 4s n 5s graduating liao. Last former day in school today. I thought will have alot of people but..... LOL. Oh well, see all sec 4s n 5s on Monday. hahas:) Hopefully I'll do a good job :x

Guess i shall end here, ciaos people:)

2010-09-20T11:27:00.002+08:00

YOOO!:D

I told him to post, he dun wan, so i helping him post. 'O's and EOY coming. All stressed. HAHAHAS:) Hmmm... He say he'll post after 'O's. Let him jiayousxz first:)

I maybe won't post again due to EOY so, on behalf of him,

WISHING ALL SEC 4S AND 5S GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR 'O'S PAPERS:) JIAYOUSXZ!:D
WISHING ALL GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EOY PAPERS! JIAYOUSXZ:D

CIAOS!:D

2010-08-25T18:59:00.002+08:00

Noticed he didn't post for alot of days...

anyways, He've been having lessons and night classes... Guess sec 4 really stress... I pity them though.. We had for during our ILJ but they didn't have a chance to go and i think this is the 1st ILJ? lols. too bad time is running out. I've nothing to say lah.. lols. recently due to schedules less time see each other D: hahas. alrights, just keeping his blog alive. he tooked his 'o' El oral le :D I'm having my EOY de on nxt friday. nothing to worry about since doing PS everyday. hahas. alrights cyahs =)

Jiayousxz to all sec 4s n 5s and hang on :) Your effort will be paid off :D

Claire

2010-08-06T00:12:00.002+08:00

hmm.. been thinking of famous qoutes that are motivating..
"Try not to become a man of success, But rather try to become a man of value." - Albert Einstein.
"Success is not important, What matters most is the work put in." -Unknown Author.

Been reading many inspirational qoutes and been motivated alot by them.. it seems too perfect yet its not.. Did History SBQ during night class today.. i don't know about the rest but i'm deeply sadden by the picture.. 5 Young boys were so skinny.. you could just see the rib cage of the boy.. this is caused by poor governing of the country.. Well, the source is quite old, and its all over.. People in Africa are suffering every second we are living.. Yet we see people wasting resources, wasting food, water.. its disheartening to see such things happening yet we do not have the power to stop it from happening.. I believe everyone in the world knows about the conditions in Africa and other poor country.. I believe every government would like to help them.. yet, we just see some people going there, doing some things for them and leaving.. its normal.. most people would say, 'we have to take care of ourselves first before taking care of others.' i understand this logic. when people have taken care of themselves, greed starts to conquer them.. they will start to forget that they once said that they want to help those in need. Time flies for us, yet time crawls for them.. i stumbled upon one show by chance. it showed a tv crew going to a poor country and taking photos of the villages food, the place they live in and how they find food.. it looks so disheartening.. to people who are used to clean food, those food would seem extremely disgusting, to those people, those food would seem disgusting too but they have to eat to live on.. i want to help them very much yet i do not know how do i go about doing so. i suppose i shall wait till i have the ability to do so.. Nights..

2010-07-24T21:05:00.002+08:00

Hellos!:D Since he dun wan update i update, and since i very long never update i update. hahahahahahas!:D Lalalalalalalalalalala. Listening compre just pass like days ago... Listened and it's... hard? Maybe no paper that's why :x hahahahahahahahahas! I very lame h0r? xD Recently very happy i dunno why. Except falling sick now. Oh yeahs, just wanna tell this - in his tagbox:

Eh, I know you very free, go do something meaningful? I mean, you scolded me in my blog, in my class blog and now here. What's the freaking problem with you? If you so free, go do volunteery work. And, you unhappy with me or him, come to my face and say, dun be keyboard warrior. Thank you =)

I just dun get it why are there spammers in this world... They nothing better to do? Spammers with real name okay lah.. but spammers with anonymous names.... zzz. Long post? CYAH!:D xD Tag him more please D:

Claire

2010-07-18T10:23:00.002+08:00

i realise that i've been neglecting this blog.. lols.. realised that i've been spending too much time on ncc.. seriously too much.. i've been neglecting my studies for a long time.. perhaps its time to forget about ncc and remember that i still have O levels starting end of october? perhaps i should study and study now? i'm still not confident of reaching my goal set for O levels.. its like a long run and i'm lagging way back behind.. its hard to catch up.. haiz.. everyday wan do homework but no mood do.. where is the O level feeling? where is the feeling of rush? i dun seem to have it.. lols..

2010-07-09T18:52:00.002+08:00

YOOO! :D

Sorry long time never post..

Today is his 7th day he's sick. Ps, my eng jialat de :x He's MT 'O' oral just past:D Hope he did well... Its been long since I last posted... Actually I dun have anything to say lo.. I just got a msg that he is recovering :D:D:D Yeahs! :D

Okay lah, shall not post. I could see that he is tired... Haiz... Take care all...

Claire

2010-06-27T20:37:00.001+08:00

Helping him wish hisyam :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

Anyways, here by informing that he wun be posting as often, so will I. I will be using on weekends, so i will help him update every week to keep this blog alive =) Tag him more ^^

Claire

2010-06-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

LOL.. i'm stuck in a dilemma again.. why do i always get stuck in such situations? lols.. sick of it sia.. Went out with my family yesterday.. and it was my whole family.. everyone was there.. my baby cousin and even my brother! LOL.. went to bishan to eat then went Suntec.. my grandpa was drunk but he said things like, 'we have to look after my baby cousin cos by the time he's old, my gandpa cant see le' (Direct translation) dunno why people nowadays wan to say this type of thing.. Another CDAC event coming up.. Looking forward to it.. haha.. Last year of holidays le.. looking forward to school sia.. Suddenly feel like studying.. lols.. weird sia..

2010-06-16T13:48:00.003+08:00

Hellos.. :D:D:D
Bleh . I'm posting. see, i so guai :x jkjk. going out with hisyam n him tmr:) anyways, he very guai lehh. Post by himself:D hahahahahas!:D i nothing to say. lalala. i wan cycle. oh yeahh. holiday going end le. sian sia. :x okay byebye. i nothing to say le. byesbyes:D TAG HIM MORE!:D
Claire

2010-06-14T10:57:00.002+08:00

i'm back.. haha.. thanks to that person in-charge of planning the deployment of my work, i didn't get to work.. so ya.. went to NCC Annual Camp.. was half-expecting the sirs to chase us away.. they didn't.. instead, they told me, zul, hisyam and irvin to stay.. haha.. so yeah.. was in school on wednesday from 7am to the next day about 7plus.. went home at about 4plus.. joined the nightwalk.. was kinda surprised that we were told to join the scaring.. the partCs had to walk the nightwalk.. lols.. was kinda of sad and disappointed when i went back to sch at about 8.. the partCs showed attitude sia.. well.. it all went well.. after nightwalk, the seniors and clts and mr danny went to staff lounge to talk and eat supper.. haha.. 2hours plus of ghost stories and crapping.. went to parade square to sleep at about 3plus... woke up at 5 plus.. slacked until 6plus then went to wake the cadets.. after that, went home to bath and rest.. went back school at about 12plus.. slacked there and re-watch the horror movie, Quarantine.. lols.. dam scary sia.. then they came back from army musuem.. went around to disturb people.. so fun sia.. after that, prepared for the campfire.. lols.. first time control fire sia.. so fun.. and its so dam hot.. Hock Ann, Reynold, Zul and me were controling the fire.. we had alot of fun.. so many firewood missed the fire and went to the other side.. haha.. enjoyed the campfire alot.. then went to talk to mr taha.. he showed us his powerpoint slide.. so many motivational qoutes.. very interesting.. 2nd night only got 4 senior stay-in.. had the fire drill.. but it wasn't done as planned.. due to something that is stupid.. lols... third day was boring but smooth.. so yea, grats all PartC for making Yuying Ncc Annual Camp'10 a success! haha.. hope to join the following camps..

2010-06-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder if being positive is good.. promised hisyam to take the firewood today.. went to defu lane to find.. got firewood but no transport.. so went round and round defu lane and in the end, found transport.. i was being so positive there.. kept thinking that there would be some kind soul in the world to help us.. so ya.. some kind soul did help us but at the expense of my $20.. so i no money liao.. then just now, called my brother. he tell me i no need work liao.. my positive thinking became freaking negative.. haiz.. was kinda looking forward to working but then.. haiz.. seriously speechless..

2010-06-08T10:18:00.002+08:00

wow.. its a miracle that i'm here without her telling me to.. haha.. i'm bored.. and i'm confused.. should i go work at Suntec IT Fair or go NCC annual camp? cos it kinda clashed.. lols.. ncc camp is thursday to saturday.. while the IT fair is thursday to sunday.. and the timing.. haiz.. CLASHED! wth.. the IT fair starts from 11 to 9 but i have to be there at 9.30! so freaking early.. haiz.. what to do.. i cant even go the night walk or campfire.. i dun wanna regret it.. cos it would be the last ncc camp before i graduate.. haiz.. someone give me advice can?

2010-06-05T22:25:00.003+08:00

its the first week of the june holidays.. but yet it isn't a holiday.. had exam on mondaay then lessons from tuesday til next monday.. hate this life sia.. keep studying.. haiz.. went to see the partC's mock specialist course on friday.. all the clts dam fierce.. lols.. even reynold shouted.. hope they get the rank they desire in spec course.. nothing to say le.. byebye.

2010-05-30T21:35:00.001+08:00

I promised to post today so here i am. nothing today. 1 thing only:

WISHING ALL SEC 4 EXPRESS GOOD LUCK. GIVE YOUR BEST AND YOU'LL SCORE DISTINCTION!:D JIAYOUSXZ~ :D

I'm nervous. LOL

claire

2010-05-28T22:04:00.002+08:00

Hi again..
Okay lah.. i know i promised u all i will get him to post and i really WILL. but not now cos its 3 days more to his 'O's MT paper 1 n 2. Worried sick but yeah, I believe he can do well and score distiction ^^ Can see he's trying his best... He's trying to complete 10 papers or so.... Hope he can... Really worried sick.. Cos he's so stress... Haiz.. Anyways, all sec 4s and 5NA, take care of yourselves, not the time to fall sick or get angry or wadeva shyt now. hahahas:D i notice i so naggy sia xDD Okay lah. nth to say. post on sunday:D
Claire

2010-05-22T16:21:00.000+08:00

Hihi:)
Yeah.. Decided to post for him once again... Cause he's lazy:) Anyways, results are out and I can say he's ain't bad:) Especially his Chinese:) Bet he can get A1 for it:) It's 9 days more to his MT 'O's so yah... He's stress... Having intensive MT lesson (from morning 8am till recess which is 1055am) since Thursday and will only end this Thursday I think. Haiz.. Stressful for him:( Sad sad. Yah.. Oh yah, he has got bandaged at his ankle there. hahas. So dun be shock if he still has got his bandaged on monday~ hahahas:) He sprained his ankle. Saddy. Ask him go see that dunno wad thing than drag drag until today. Naughty right? xD Okay lah.. nothing liao.. will get him to post~ byes:D

Claire

2010-05-14T11:37:00.000+08:00

Hihi:D Nothing to do so i decided to post. I told him to post he say nothing to say. LOL. So yah. Exams over. For him wednesday last paper liao. *JEALOUS* xD So yah.. Nothing to say too lehhh... Just some bad news happened. cannot say lah. And dun go and ask him h0r. I KILL U!xD Haha. from 1 video de :D yah random me :D Okay lah. nothing much. Tag him more ok?:) BYES~

Claire

2010-05-01T21:26:00.003+08:00

Currently, I'm bored. So I shall post..
Good... He said that he will not play com after yesterday night and he still did. LOLs. I wonder how to get him to study.. MT 'O's are like 30 days away.. Haiz.. He is tired of studying.. Yet I'm like getting more and more interested in studying.. Haha. Can ask Jaryl/ShiYing/PeiLeng if u know them. HAHA! I wonder how to get him to be interested in studying.. Hmm.. Recently Exam coming so even me myself busy.. It's like studying out for like 3-5 hours everyday! Taking a break tomorrow..
I hope he'll do the same.. But I know it's hard for him... Haiz.. Nevermind... Maybe after MYE i'll really get him to study... Let him rest bahh... Afterall I believe teachers are more naggy, homework increased, remedials increased and an additional of night class.. Not easy for him and all sec 4s.. Dam stressful to actually try to finish up homeworks after night class.. Hahas.. Okay lah. I know I very random. I also tired. I also stressed. LOLS. Okay. I'm being too random. I'll get him to post soon alrights? Take care:)

Claire

2010-04-27T22:14:00.002+08:00

Apologise long time no update..
I did get that guy to update... But he don't feel like.. And I just "Recovered" From my "emoness". LOLs. Okay... So exams started.. And he took his English Paper 1 and 2, MT paper 1 and SS paper... It'll be great:) I believe:D
Yah... So... Supposingly he's quite stress... Cos I forced him to study from 8pm - 9pm ytd... I hope he really did... And I believe he did it. LOLs. So yah.. But i very good de lor. I let him take a break. today. hahahas:D I jealous... After his paper he playing basketball... Me leh? Having practise test:( Sian lah. Hahaha:D Okay lahh.. I maybe getting him to post after exams... Or maybe his paper. Will try to post as often... Busy studying recently.. So yah..
Tag him more okay?:) Thanks!:D Take care:)

Claire

2010-04-16T21:46:00.003+08:00

I got my Laptop on monday! YAY! so happy.. its a erm.. Acer ASPIRE 4820T Series.. dunno what the hell is that but its cool.. haha.. dam tired this few days.. slept enough but still freaking sleepy in school.. the sight of books made me feel down.. the sight of teachers make me feel sleepy. the sight of my test result depresses me. the sight of revision worksheet makes me feel stress.. what else is there in school to cheer me up? almost failed chinese and physics. failed maths. wonder what's next for me to fail? wonder what's gonna make me feel depressed next? haha.. shall see what will happen..

Edit
Hahahas! Claire here:) Let's see arh... okay. This boy is dam emo.. So let's do some stuffs...
If the sight of books makes u down, than put something in the book that will make u UP xD
If the sight of teachers make you sleepy, than dun see them, listen to the lesson and see the stuffs on board xD
If the sight of the test results depresses you, than quickly stand up and buck up!
No more no more no more! No more to fail or make u depress! You will pass pass pass and not fail fail fail!!!! No more FAIL this word! :D Will pass de... Will pass de!!! Must believe in urself.. I dun care le lah... I wun let u continue feeling depress le... U will pass... WILL PASS... Dun believe in urself.. At least believe in me okay?
WAHA!:D BYEBYE!:D

2010-04-09T13:43:00.000+08:00

HI!:D
Curious why I can post now right? I can even post at 8am in the morning.
LOLs.
I'm on MC for 10 days..
Bored, so posting here...
I dunno how is he..
3 days I never see him..
Guess he's tired..
Nothing much..
Take care everyone..
Byebye

Claire

2010-04-03T19:50:00.001+08:00

hihi..
I told him to blog but he say he has nothing to say..
He's very slacking...
He's sleeping...
He's 'O's is about 2mths time and he can sleep and slack..
Don't know what to say..
I hope he'll get good results..
Nothing much lah. I'm bored.. Byebye

2010-04-01T20:06:00.001+08:00

Alright I'm back:)
So yah, he got post:)
Nothing much lah...
Never bully him h0r?
Tmr I ask him arh..
xD
Okay lah.
Byebye

2010-03-31T20:54:00.003+08:00

My eye hurts!!!! Been enduring the freaking pain in my eye since like sunday? I could barely open my right eye every morning.. Kinda forced it open.. Lols.. Sounds so disgesting.. I'm feeling better but it kinda of suck to feel moody.. Good thing is, she's coming back to Singapore tomorrow! Tomorrow will be a short day as time would fly... I hope.. haha.. Shall end here for now.. My eye is telling me to sleep early today.. Byes..

2010-03-30T19:12:00.002+08:00

hello.. its been quite a long time since i last posted on this blog.. well.. She's gone to malaysia for camp.. Been feeling so moody since this morning.. i dunno what happened to me.. never liked this feeling.. hopefully it'll be gone soon.. shall end here.. i'm bored.. i dunno what to write..

2010-03-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

I'm posting before I go camp...
Anyways..
I won't be able to help him post for next 3 days..
Tag him more ok?:)
That's all:)
Don't bully him in the next 3 days arh!!!
Byebye

Claire

2010-03-25T19:24:00.005+08:00

I OFFICIALLY DECLARE MYSELF ~~BROKE~~ NOT BROKE!

so many things happening.. feeling so freaking hell ~~stressed out~~ relax.. been in a ~~bad~~ good0 mood for quite ~~some~~a long time.. lessons getting more and more ~~boring~~ interesting, teachers getting more and more naggy ~~and~~,angry and irritating.. things being so ~~bad~~ good except for teachers.. lots of overdue homework.. no Soon have mood to do.. feeling so freaking hell tired now.. i've got nothing to post now.. Last Chinese Oral before the O Levels on friday.. Have not prepared for it.. To my surprise, I did well for my Chinese Oral. I'm having more and more confidence..

EDITED BY CLAIRE WHO IS SO PROUD OF IT ! xD
I'm just playing. lols. and yah, to make his post more positive. boy, dun be so negative le ok? You got your friends and me!;D

2010-03-25T18:58:00.002+08:00

0kay lah.
Shall post...
Though i dun feel like..
I dunno how is he recently.. I can frankly tell you... It's been 1 week + since we last really communicated... So.. Yah...
For my case.. It's dam bad... But for him.. Suppose it's good.. Cause he has his friends.. Though I have mine but... I dun wanna say...
Camp's coming soon.. I won't be able to update this blog.. I will get him to update both my blog n his blog EVERYDAY... If I can..
Okay lah. nothing much le.
Tag him thanks

Claire

2010-03-15T20:43:00.001+08:00

Hihihi!
I told him to post and he dun wan.
Naughty le h0r?:D
Okay lahs.. So he went to return his uniform today.. Think he's sad:( Anyways at least he get to wear it which is rare? Hahas:)
I miss him sia.
Holiday = no holiday
We not time to spend together.
LOLs. anything.
Take care:)

Claire

2010-03-10T21:23:00.002+08:00

ok.. i got nothing to do now... so i shall post for awhile.. today went to NCC HQ again! to collect the sec1s uniform.. was having discussion with some of the specs and they all agreed that this year partA is much better.. well.. sad thing is, we had to take public transport there and back to sch.. it was so confusing giving out the uniforms.. so many cant fit in.. Lols.. dunno how they size de.. but overall, it was a success! Lols.. 7th month together le.. so many things happening.. lols.. hopefully will be better.. shall end here.. byes..

2010-03-08T19:32:00.001+08:00

WAHAHAHA!:D
I'm here to post!!!
Have a good news to share!!:D
He is NOT going to malaysia this weekend!:D
WHICH MEANS..
WAHAHAHA!
Sorry but i'm high now!
WAHAHAHAHA!:D
Ok lah.
I nothing to say.
BYEBYE!:D

Claire
Love you:)

2010-03-05T21:39:00.002+08:00

lols.. its been soooooooooo long since i visited this blog.. haha.. was very busy and tired this few days.. so. here i am.. things happening like a flash of thunder.. Zoom! so fast, its over.. haha.. preparing for O levels everyday.. teachers nagging, teachers scolding.. i know its all for our own good.. sounds familiar uh? haha.. its true.. anyway.. i've decided to stay away from trouble as far as possible.. but if trouble comes to me, i think i shall just do whatever should be done regardless the consequences? lols.. shall think about that next time.. was so sick today.. vomit thrice.. lols.. the feeling sucks! hate it like hell.. have to buy badges for some people tomorrow.. dun really feel like going but.. i've promised them.. so it has to be done.. so well.. i think i shall end my post here.. imma sleep soon.. so cya.. byes!

2010-02-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

Hihihi:)
Bored so help this boyboy upadte:)

Seriously I wonder why being a human is so hard..
Whatever...
He's going to malaysia on 13 and 14..
I'll be missing him like hell!!!!
AHH!:(
Hope he won't go.
But he got wedding dinner to attend so no choice lahs...
At least is not like that time 9 days...
But haiz..
Seriously don't wanna leave him for a sec:(
Hahas:)
We took photo again lehs...
Last dunno when.
Hehe:D
But yeahs, we took again:D
hehe:D
Ok lah, have fun:)
MORE TAGS ARE EXPECTED!:D

Claire

2010-02-25T20:22:00.003+08:00

Updating for this naughty boyboy again.
Decide to end at 8.30pm. Hahas:)
Anyways, recently just quarrelled with him..
seriously I swear I'll try my best and never quarrel with anyone anymore.
Cause quarrelling with him,
gaining that experience,
that shock,
was the worse thing ever in my life.
Seriously, latest quarrel was the scariest thing in my life.
I can't afford to lost this boy boy.
Hahas:)
I'll get him to update. SOON:D
Hahas:D
Ending here:)
BYES:)

Claire

2010-02-17T19:32:00.001+08:00

Hihihi =)
I've decided to make his blog as alive as possible..
Depending if i have time.
Hahas.
Alright let's see...
So he's gonna be free for 2 weeks..
He's at his aunt house...
Playing Mahjong.
But i think stop le...
Cause he is tired and his HP no battery.
LOLs.
Okay lah.
I dunno what to say le.
Wishing everyone a happy new year:)
Tag him more ok?:)
BYESBYES:D

Claire

2010-02-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

I believe he is tired to even post...
Afterall he is still spring cleaning his house...
Hope he won't get too exhausted..
If he really gonna get too exhausted I won't ask him go out liao...
On Tuesday..
Hahas...
Anyways time is fast...
1.5hrs more is new year le:)
He gave me care bear today:)
cute u know? :D
He definitely know me well:D
Alrights.. just helping him wish everyone:
Happy Chinese New Year
Happy Valentine Day
That's all =)
Wish you guys will collect alot alot alot of Red Packets =)
Cheers =)

Claire

2010-02-10T21:59:00.002+08:00

hellos.. its been a long while since i lasted posted.. so here i am.. been busying for the past weeks.. the day we all been practising for is finally coming.. well today is also a special day.. cos its the 6th month since me and claire got together.. in the blink of an eye, 6months have passed.. so fast.. wow.. well.. thats all.. byes..

2010-02-10T21:57:00.001+08:00

I am going to recover from my illlneesss!!:D
After he sick my turn. WAHAHAHA:D
hahas. Imma high now =)
But also tired..
today is a very loved day by me!
WAHAHA!
See what he post, cause i ask him post de... Hahas:D
BLEH!:D

Claire

2010-02-03T20:43:00.001+08:00

FINALLY! I'M GETTING POSITIVE! Was suddenly very positive yesterday.. but then emo-ed due to some stupid things.. well.. i shall try to continue my positive thinking and strive to get less than 15points for L1R4.. haha.. will try my best to study dam hard for the remaining 8months? alright.. gtg now.. byes..

2010-01-30T20:55:00.002+08:00

Lols.. i'm quite tired now yet i dun feel like sleeping.. slept at 12 this morning.. was woken up at about 6.. dam tired.. slacked at home until about 7 then left home for school.. went for pds training.. YES! Performing for Chinese New Year Celebration! then went to maths tuition at 8.30.. Ms Ros didn't come so i continued my training.. left school about 12.30.. reached home then left again at about 2pm.. was out until 7pm.. so here i am posting.. homeworks are getting harder.. gotta use all my brain juices to think.. i think i shall stop here.. byes..

2010-01-25T17:02:00.002+08:00

i realise that i'm neglecting my blog.. so i'm here to post.. haha.. didn't go to school today.. due to headaches, running nose, sore throat, gastric flu and vommiting.. great right? i waited for the doctor for so dam long.. almost 2hours.. bobian.. i go see budget doctor.. haha.. slept straight away when i reached home.. then woke up to eat breakfast+lunch (cos i vomit my breakfast out) and then took the medicine.. alot sia.. eat until sick.. haha.. been using com until now.. kinda bored.. i miss school! i rather do homework.. just remembered that i have not completed my chinese homework.. gotta complete it by tonight.. not intenting to do use com tonight.. haiz.. i hate falling sick.. i dun wan to feel weak ever again!

2010-01-06T16:21:00.002+08:00

Hellos hellos hellos:)
alright. help Kevin post since I got time today... 3rd day of school.. Don't know he can cope ma. Suddenly need do homework. LOLs. I think he can:) I believe in him:) So yeahs.. He needa cope with homework and NCC.. Haiz... Hope he'll be okay and not too stress off...
Haven have the chance to be together like in the holidays since school started... Really miss holiday days:( Lols... But oh well.. Studies.. CONCENTRATE:) Hahas:D Alrights... Nothing much:) Goodbyes:)

2009-12-29T16:00:00.002+08:00

hello.. i'm back to my blog.. haha.. went working at a warehouse sale from thursday to saturday.. My aunt's first son's first month celebration was on sunday.. it was boring cos she was only entertaining her friends.. understandable though.. haha.. was scolded by mr soh just now cos of the Part A's training.. haiz.. dunno what to do now.. my tongue now hurts like hell.. i suspect my tongue got infection.. its been hurting from friday.. would try to see doctor tomorrow.. school reopen soon.. feel bored..

Bored

2009-12-24T16:57:00.002+08:00

Hellos:)
I'm bored so decided to post.
Anyways, he went to Jurong dunno whr, some where near Jurong birdpark, for work. Should be a furniture warehouse sales:) 4 days but only working for 3 days cos Sunday his baby cousin 1st month. Today his 1st day hope he ok with it:) Well, Yeahs.. He have to work during christmas and I have to endure 3 days no see him:( It hard. Finally it's 5pm. Hahas:D But 2 more days no see him... Believe he reach home will straight away sleep or so... So will be contacting lesser... Have to endure... Haiz...
He should be posting bout his work and hopefully thr are photos:) Okays, nothing le. I wan read Teenage. Byebye:)
Claire

2009-12-15T08:26:00.002+08:00

finally realised that i have not been posting for quite a while.. i'm posting right now.. haha.. i'm looking forward to 19&20 of december.. cos i'll be helping out in a event for 2days straight! haha.. so happy.. finally can do something i really like and enjoy.. went for the briefing on staurday.. kind of know what i'm supposed to do. haha.. the briefing was funny cos i kept disturbing the person in-charge of my section: distribution. haha.. he was like disturbing me back to.. haha.. after the briefing, i went to Claire's house.. was kind of shock when her dad called me.. cos i was expecting a not so friendly approach from her dad.. haha.. was dam pissed at my sister yesterday.. haiz.. what can i do other than endure? well.. didn't run to the staduim today cos i was too tired.. i kept asking myself... where's my motivation? i have it sometimes but then other times, its gone.. i want to do alot of things.. yet i'm afraid of failure.. Fear has been the thing stopping me from doing alot of things.. haiz.. someone teach me how to overcome fear completely.. i really need my life back.. the life without the fear in it.. kind of lost now.. trying my best to find myself back.. really need to overcome fear to find myself back..

2009-12-08T00:12:00.001+08:00

Hoho!!!
8 December lohhsss...
Santa come give Kevin extra prezziieee lerhs:DDDDDDDD
hahas:D

Happy Sweet 15th Birthday BaoBao:D Lurves you lots lots lots :DDDDDDDD

hahas..
That's all:)
Celebrating few hours later:)
Later cannot throw temper:D
Okays, byesbyes:)

Claire:D

Sick:)

2009-11-28T20:43:00.002+08:00

Hellos
Long time no update:)
Kevin is having headache every night. Hope he is okay. Haiz... I miss him... gotta wait 5 days before we can meet:( At night no chat with him I can't slp:( Haiz... Miss him alot..
Well, Kevin's post is lame lahs, previous. Cos I ask him post i suppose he nth to say. Hmmm... Yeahs.. We went to Farm Mart on Thurs or Wed. I forgot. But it was fun:) Saw goat, cute~!:D Alrights, nothing to say too. I'm also being lame. Hahas:D CIAOS~!:D

---------- Claire ----------

2009-11-27T13:19:00.002+08:00

hi.. its been a long time since i last updated this blog.. haha.. quite tired this few days.. much apologises for not updating.. haha.. why are there spammers or should i say, people who have nothing to do except going to people's blog and scold the owners? I'm just curious to know their intention.. why are they so cowardly and hide behind a monitor screen and scold people? don't they have a name to use? why do they wan to use some stupid name to scold people? if you are a spammer/someone who have nothing to do except scold people's blog, can you tell me your intention? have anyone offended you so badly that you have to do such despicable things? did the owner kill your family members or killed your best friend? well i don't think so.. i just cant find a reason for your doings..

2009-11-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

hey people.. i'm back from Perak! YAY! i'm so happy... but the trip was very fun.. i tried white water rafting and went through the Gua Tempurung Cave.. this is one very enriching trip for me.. haha.. really like it.. lots of fun and laughter there.. i dun have the pictures but i'll try to take them from someone else.. i shall end it for today..

He will b back

2009-11-17T13:11:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps...
Finally 9th day. But i have not recieve his msg... Have 3 msgs today... Was scared to open it.. Cos I was hoping every single msg is his... i tink he will be back at about 10pm+? I dunno where is he... I hope he's at there de Airport T.T But I doubt so... He say he go Perak but thn i search dun have such place? Or maybe there is? He say I take Tiger Airways. So I checked. Only got Phuket. Thn if Phuket, the plane will only depart at 8pm+ and arrive at 10pm+... Haiz...
I really hope, the vibration of my phone, the light shone from my phone, the "1 new message" from my phone is from him.... Haiz..
But no matter what, I just hope he come back safely.. and oso quickly... Time is like getting slower and slower and slower. Everytime whn i thought like 3-4 hours had past, it only turns out to be 30mins or 1hour... Haiz..
Hope he will be back soon, be back safe and sound....
Hopefully... One of the message will be from him... By today...
Can't help but miss him and... Cry.. :(

Claire

He's coming back...

2009-11-16T18:08:00.002+08:00

Hellos peeps..
Yeahs... 1 more day and he will be back... Raining today... I hope there not raining... Even if raining, I hope he isn't drenched. He can't be drenched... Well, he can, but he needs at least 6 or 8 hrs of sleep.. If not he will fall sick:( Hope he can take good care of himself... Dunno what is he doing... Haiz...
I miss him:( Cried yesterday.. =X But only for awhile...
Life changed without him... I actually can get bullied verbally and physically by a junior.. Haiz.. I'm useless huh...
I hope time fly faster... I hope tomorrow will come immediately... I hope today is tomorrow.. I hope he will come back in the morning.. I hope I will see his msg once I wake up.. I hope I hope..
Haiz... I'm waiting.. I'm trying to hangon.. Many things and troubles to tell him.. Cos I dun trust anyone else...
Alright, ending here byes..
Come back soon pls!!!

Claire

I'm back, He's gone

2009-11-15T15:36:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps!!!
Seems like I didn't update for quite long for both Kevin's and my blog huh? Well, I was at HaiNan for 7 Days. Just came back not long ago and I decided to update his blog 1st cos mine will be a long one and needs photos so will be updating at a later date:)
Yeahs... So... Kevin went to malaysia... T.T 2nd Day since he went.. I couldn't get him off my mind for the whole trip... And I seriously cried badly on the 1st day. But was alright after tat cos I promised him to stay happy lerhs. But I'm quite disappointed/sad as he still cried in the end... Haiz... Nvm... I noe how he feels... Well, yeahs, as I was saying... He's 2nd day at malaysia lerhs... 2 more days... I promised to update for him once I'm back so I will be updating till tuesday:) I dunno wad he doing, but I hope he is enjoying and having fun, and not emoing. 7th day. We passed it. I believe we will be able to overcome it:)
Can't help but worry bout him. Worry he sad or emo... But Yeahs... Will try not to...
Alright... 2nd day... 2 more days.. I'm counting down..
Shall end my post here... Byes:)
I miss him lots...

Claire

2009-11-13T17:08:00.002+08:00

Finally.. its the last day of my work experience... Well... today was a very slack day.. i reach Farmart Centre at about 9.05? then i went to the shop to wait for uncle william.. then i helped to pack the quail eggs.. after that, i help uncle william do the dead quails.. First, i cut off the feet.. then i had to pull out all the feathers and cut through the body.. sounds disgesting? haha.. then uncle william took out all the insides of the quails... haha.. thats all.. Uncle william gave me extra 100ringgit for my trip.. So Good sia!! i'm going to malaysia tomorrow morning.. haiz.. so early.. i still miss her lots..

2009-11-12T15:38:00.009+08:00

As Promised, i will post the photos today..

This is the shop i've been going for this week...

Uncle William Shop..
Lots of Quail Eggs.. About 120 of them..
The meat sold there.. Forgot what meat..

More meat sold there..

There's black chicken.. if you can see..

Some chicken meat i think..

Ahh.. Black Chicken.. Looks nice?

The Crocodile Meats..

The Crocodile Front Leg meat..

Pictures Taken on Tuesday at the Tour..

Dam big lizard..

Banana Tree!

I think this is CaiXin..

Lots of Vegetables right?

Forgot the name of this vegetable..

More of Them..

Forgot this Vegetable too..

I think this is Bean Sprout...

The Goat Farm..

Lots of Mother Goats...

Baby Goats!

The fish Farm!

Some kind of Fish? Random shot..

Another random shot..

Random shot..

Didn't know what fish it is.. Just took Photos

Forgot the Fish name again.. Sorry!

Some kinds of fish..

this is a clear-water fish.. forgot its name.. sorry!

Uncle William on the left, Uncle Quek on the right.

They are showing the Metta School pupils the Frogs.

Lots of BullFrogs..

Freshwater Eels...

So basically.. These are the things that i saw.. I didn't take any photo of today's tour.. Sorry.. I was too busy.. kept runing around.. haha.. But then it was quite fun... I left Farmart Centre at 12.50.. i can go at about 11plus.. but then i kept talking to the auntie there... Fourth day without her... Feel so lost.. Miss her lots.. haiz... I'm really very weak.. Cried just now cos i missed her too much... Hope can faster see her...

2009-11-11T21:17:00.003+08:00

hellos... today was a slack day at Uncle William's shop.. i'll post the pictures tomorrow.. i'll show all the funny thing in his shop... haha... Third day le... i still think of her alot.. Miss her lots.. Wish time could pass faster.. i still wan to cry... things aren't the same without her in my life.. everything goes wrong...

2009-11-10T16:59:00.002+08:00

hello... i'm back posting again.. today was quite fun.. i went to Metto School this morning to meet Uncle Quek.. then we took a bunch of mentally disbaled students to Farmart Centre.. after that, we went for the farm tour.. First, we went to a fish farm.. then Uncle William introduced the fishes in a funny manner.. haha... then we went to a Goat farm.. after listening to the person talk, we walked one round then sat down and had a bottle of chocolate goat milk.. no taste sia.. then we went to a vegetable farm and Uncle William introduced the vegetables to us too.. quite interesting.. haha.. after the tour, we went back to Farmart center and had lunch.. then Jaccob and i went to the Uncle William shop and talked to his wife.. quite enriching too.. haha.. after that, we went back to the Quall farm and took ten bags of Shit.. Yes, we took shit.. it stinks like hell and was dam heavy and surprisingly, it was warm.. haha.. we took it to a chalet where a shop was growing banana tree.. after that, we went home... simple right? i shall post tomorrow.. i really miss her alot.. kept thinking of what she's doing now.. hope time can pass faster..

2009-11-09T15:47:00.004+08:00

wow... i just started my work experience program today.. quite fun.. but the smell was... urgh... haha.. i and another guy called jaccob(if i'm not wrong) was asked to help collect eggs from the quarls(hopefully i spelled it right) .. then we were told to sort them out... then we packed the eggs into plastic... quite fun... oh ya, i forgot to mention the person in-charge.. he's a nice person and we call him Uncle William.. will be seeing him for the next four days.. hopefully i can endure until the day we can talk again.. its just the first day.. really miss her alot.. hope she come back safetly..

2009-11-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

haiz... Lots of things happening next fews weeks... Perhaps this is why i'm having this sudden feeling.. i'm feeling dam stress now.. i have no idea why.. she going to Hainan on monday.. that means i'm alone for so many days.. then i'll be going Perak, somewhere in Ipoh i think.. so we wont be able to talk for roughly 9days? its very long.. i hope she can be strong.. haiz.. everything seems to be very fast.. too fast that it makes me scared... TIME! Can you please slow down..? You're really scaring me! haiz.. i think i'll find ways to counter this stress problem.. hopefully? haha.. Watched Love Happens with Claire on Wednesday... Quite a nice movie.. Interesting yet funny.. haha.. thats all i think? so.. i'll try to post when i start woking at the farm.. haha..

2009-11-04T10:49:00.002+08:00

Lalala!
Hellos peeps!
Hehe, I'm bored + this blog din update for a week lohhs..
Hahas..
Okay lahs, can't blame. Kevin recently no emo (good good!:D) n tired lohhs... Sec 1 n 2 holidays lerhs, sec 3 still muz go back 1 more week of LESSONS. T.T I see all sec 3 very tired... jiayousxz jiayousxz!! 2 days more:) As usual, i dunno wad to say. I guess all promoted to the nxt class? grats grats... jiayousxz jiayousxz:)
Dunno wads wrong with me keep jiayousxz-ing. Hahas:D
Tag tag pls pls pls!
Kayes, byesbyes xD

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2009-10-26T21:48:00.002+08:00

i'm emoing once again.. unsure of the cause of this sudden mood swing.. have you ever tried cheering a person up when you yourself is emoing or feeling down? if you hadn't, dun ever try it.. the feeling sucks.. i did that just now.. i was already emoing.. yet i tried my best to cheer my best friend up.. hopefully she is feeling better now.. why did i say don't do what i did just now? cos you'll feel double sadness and you'll feel even more down.. this feeling is so unbearable.. i just feel like crying now.. yet i cant.. tears are just trapped in my eyes unable to be released.. trying very hard to make that best friend of mine forget me so that i will not feel so guilty.. yet its a failure.. haiz.. am i bound to be a failure? i have totally no idea.. Felt like giving up again.. Once a friend is lost, the friendship is lost forever.. Cherish and Treasure the friendships you have now.. for me. its gone forever.. one friend just gone during a ncc training.. i dunno what to do now.. this matter is making my mind so confused.. Someone teach me what to do...

2009-10-24T08:45:00.002+08:00

i'm back here emoing again.. i thought everything would change and turn out better.. but instead it was just another childish dream of mine.. what happened yesterday really made me think that there's nothing in this world worth me living for.. hopefully after i post, my mind would be much peaceful.. my mind is now in a mess.. i feel so troubled now.. yet i dun wan to make her worry about me.. haiz.. things are getting worse... Results not good at all.. Ncc is as bad.. lost all interest in my favourite subject.. Finally.. this thought came to my mind... should i really go and die..? are those bad things hinting that my presence in this world is not needed anymore? i really dunno.. once again.. i'm back to my emo and negative self.. nothing can really cheer me up..

Updating

2009-10-22T21:04:00.002+08:00

Okays, so i see... Kevin din update for 6 days lerhs bahs? Hmm... He asked me to update ytd but saw wad i type thn say suan le xD So... I guess I shall just update since it's been long i've updated n yeahs, he's blog is almost dead? As usual, I dunno wad to say... Hopefully this blog will not be dead during the holidays... Afterall Kevin's gonna be bz n im gonna be half bz, half crazy bout Icy Tower. Hahas:D Will try to update if im not lazy xD So yeahs, i dunnid tell how's kevin bahs. His post.. Haiz.. Lost.. I wonder why studies always affects people's mood.. Seriously hate getting back results... Hopefully CA2 marks will pull Kevin's and everyone's marks up!!!:D Kayes lahs, im being random cos I have nothing to say.. Well, updated. Do tag yeahs?:) Cyahs!:D

++++++ Updated by Claire ++++++

2009-10-16T11:25:00.002+08:00

wow.. i've learnt something yesterday.. training with cadets without punishment is actually fun.. haha.. finally a cheerful thing this week? perhaps.. thinking over what happened this week, i feel like a failure... now i understand what it means by, the more hope you have, the more disappointment you'll get.. all my hopes were dashed on tuesday.. Everything is gone.. there's nothing left for me to do.. To those who condemn me without a chance, i thank you! my favourite subject is now nothing but a useless and boring subject to me.. thanks to the teacher.. i dun wan to study anymore.. everything that kept me going is gone.. i felt like crying on tuesday... it was like a blow to me.. i just wanted to go for the work experience. Is it that hard? POA to me is nothing now.. i've now lost my direction.. what can i do..

2009-10-10T14:32:00.002+08:00

Finally.. the exams are finally over.. but its just the same as normal days.. my emotions are getting more and more unstable.. Somebody teach me what to do.. tried not to think about death yet i keep thinking of it.. tried not to emo.. but i still did some times.. what can i do? i dun wan to lose any friends at all.. All i can say is Sorry to those people i've hurt.. i didn't wish to do anything to them yet my emotions controlled me.. i'm not trying to push the blame.. i'm just accepting the blame.. perhaps this is fate? i hope not.. trying very hard to fight my guilty feeling and try to get their forgiveness.. its harder than i thought.. i'll try though..

2009-10-07T16:33:00.003+08:00

hi... i'm emoing again.. due to some stupid reasons that i shall not name.. was with Irvin and Hisyam just now.. they were both jokers and they made me laugh alot.. yet i know deep inside, i'm still emoing.. anyway, Hisyam knew that.. maybe its cos he know me too well? my acting skills are getting better now.. but well.. i cant hide anything from him.. i learnt something today.. Never trust those people you've hurt before. They are trying everything to get back at you. I told myself, let them be.. i'm just doing what my conscience tells me.. felt like crying this few days.. too much tears. too much things in my heart. but i'm keeping them in my heart. Physics paper was easy.. hope to pass it well.. i'm going to study real hard for maths paper2 and SS.. so byes.. will post when i'm emoing again.. hopefully i dun post..

2009-10-06T21:24:00.002+08:00

i'm back emoing again.. i dunno why.. i once asked myself, how good was it to have a helping hand or someone/something to lean on when i'm weak. yesterday was perhaps one of the days i really was weak.. i didn't eat my lunch, at about 6, i walked to my grandparents house despite my gastric pain. i endured it all the way. then when i reached the void deck, i leaned on a pillar and it really felt good, to have something for support when you need one. then i asked myself, where is your support? the answer was, you chased them all away. then i realised, everything that i did caused a consequence that i can never afford to bear. its too much a price to bear. Poa test today was bad.. i lost 7 marks due to something i didn't bother to read. i totally forgot about it. thus, i lost 7 marks. i finished the paper about 20mins before the time ended. so i should be able to just pass. yet this was not what i wanted. haiz.. everything has consequences.. yet i'm not brave enough to face those consequences.. perhaps i'm bound to be a failure? maybe its true. talked to youde just now. i told him to change his negative thinking, he asked me, for what? then i thought to myself, why didn't i ask myself why did i change. well.. its too late for everything. Regrets are the things i have left.. perhaps this is what i deserved.. i'll just have to accept it..
i'll post when i'm emoing again..

2009-10-03T10:44:00.002+08:00

Thinking back... All the things that i did.. All the setbacks i had.. All the consequences of my actions.. i had to bear them on my own.. Yet I'm too weak.. Everything was the same as primary school... Hated by classmates, Loner, Very few friends, Poor results.. The only thing that is different is that i dun have anyone to talk to at home, no one to confide my secrets and sadness to.. The difference is that I'm not as close as last time to my brother.. Thinking back.. I've overcame so many setbacks.. Yet I'm giving up now.. Perhaps it is because I've lost all my strengths.. I tried to cheer people up.. Tried to encourage them.. Yet it isn't as easy as it seems.. I'm bound to be a failure.. Thinking back.. I chased people away at times when i needed them the most.. Been asking myself, 'For what?' The answer came.. 'The only way to make myself stronger.' Perhaps, i can never be strong again.. Tried very hard to be positive.. Tried very hard to make people around me happy.. Yet i failed.. Perhaps this is the message God wants to tell me? That I'm never strong? That I'll fail in everything i do? That i should give up? Thinking back again.. The things i did that made people give up on me. Been asking myself, 'For what?' The answer came, 'The only way to make myself grow stronger is to make people around you give up on you.' Perhaps its true? I remembered that there was once, someone tried to encourage me. I don't know if that person still remembers it. Perhaps not? I've chased that person away when i was emoing.. Well.. That person didn't know it either.. Perhaps its true.. That I'm meant to be a loner.. Thinking back.. Thinking of the happy days i had.. Tried to count them.. I couldn't.. Why? There are too little.. The days when I'm really happy.. I remembered that i wrote the topic 'Guilty' in my Paper1. I'm feeling those feelings now.. I still can remember what i wrote.. I could write it so easily is because i been through it before.. Yet I'm going through it now.. I'll post again when I'm feeling emo..

2009-10-03T10:39:00.002+08:00

Lyrics to my favourite song now.. i'll try to get it on my blog soon..

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone...

2009-10-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

what is the feeling of regret? what is the feeling of disappointing someone? well.. i have found out the feelings today.. yet the only thing i can do is regret and feel remorseful.. i cant do anything other than that.. haiz.. i keep telling myself.. there will be someone who will help you.. yet its i myself who chase those people away.. Regretted those actions.. but its just too late.. been trying my best to study for EOY.. "where are those people who will help you when you need help the most?" i've been asking myself this.. then.. An answer came to me.. "it was you who chased those people away.." perhaps i'm meant to be a loner.. well.. should i just accept it? Or should i fight for it and change it? well... its too late to say all this now.. Currently emoing.. due to the things two people said to me ytd and today.. causing me to think about my actions and feel regret due to it... there's no way to change the future now.. the only thing to do now is just accept it.. haiz..

2009-09-27T20:36:00.002+08:00

hellos... i'm back!
haha... quite fun though... i was supposed to be traffic control... but when we went there, we were told that our job was to give the elderly a bottle of water and a bun... so we were kind of under Admin and Logistics... Lols.. haha.. quite fun... but tiring... there were times when we were really very busy... then the other times, we were dam free.. haha.. so at about 11.30, all the volunteers and staff left Jurong Point and went to Jurong Safrah for a very nice meal... haha... then after that, we were free and were slacking around... haha... sorry... i didn't get to take any photos there.. it was a very good experience...
1 more day left to Paper1!!!

2009-09-26T21:17:00.002+08:00

hello... sorry for not updating for so long.. was very tired this few days.. i dunno why.. Lols..
partly due to my very unstable emotions this few days.. haiz.. emo-ed when i listened to some songs that brings back all the sad memories.. and when i start to think no one cares about me... really dun wan to face all this anymore.. i'm really very tired.. i wan to sleep and never wake up.. it's so tiring to face people i dun like.. one good thing though.. i'm going to do volunteer work tomorrow! this is one of the things that can cheer me up.. cos i really enjoy it... haha.. more information about the event: the name of it is called: Porject C.A.R.E . its an event by CDAC and Lion Befriender... the aim is to bring old folks under the caer of Lion Befriender to NTUC and help them buy things.. thats all... it would be fun cos me and my brother would be in-charge of Traffic.. haha... Sounds so FUN! Cheered up alot now... shall end my post here... byes... i'll try to post tomorrow.. i'll see if i can get some photos..

Lalalas:D

2009-09-26T18:12:00.003+08:00

Hellos peepos:D
Hmmmm...
See Kevin's blog so dead so I come update...
As usual, I have nothing to say. But I tired so taking a rest. Hahas. Exam coming very sians...
I seriously have nothing to say lehhs... People, tag tag lehs:D No one tag de:( Lalalas:D
I'm thinking wad to post... But I have nothing to post. Haiz. Will try to get Kevin to update himself soon bahhs... Hmmms... Kevin's fine recently I guess...
"Never gives up no matter what"
Kevin says in his MSN PM that nothing is impossible..
Hahas:D Dunno y can't post as hyper as last time... Maybe tired bahhs...
Okays lahs... I really dunno wad to post le.. I leave other post to Kevin bahhs.. Hahas:D
Well, cyahs peeps =)
Remember to tags yeahs?:D

---------- Posted by: Claire ----------

2009-09-17T17:01:00.002+08:00

i'm sick again.. Lols.. second time so sick.. kept vomiting last night.. haiz.. tried my best to go school today.. went to school, but really cant take it so went home during recess.. i really dun wan skip lessons anymore.. EOY coming and i dun wan get poor results.. haiz.. try my best to catch up on things that i miss.. went to see doctor just now.. the doctor didn't say anything but the waiting time was LONG! Lols.. haha.. nothing much to post today..

2009-09-12T23:18:00.001+08:00

haiz.. should be short post today...
today was okay.. bad thing is, school going to reopen soon.. haiz..
feeling quite down now.. i dunno what's happening to me.. haiz..
i'll try my best to overcome this as soon as possible...
Nights All..

2009-09-10T10:28:00.002+08:00

hello... just finished my Senior Specialist Course yesterday at about 5plus.. reached home at about 7plus.. let me go through the RO for the Course.. i'm so happy to be promoted to SSG.. I will do my best and teach my cadets what i learnt in this 2 and a half days!

(7Sept)Day1:
1300: book in and reported at the MPH(Multi-Purpose Hall)
about 1400: Sergeant Major NCC came and gave us opening speech..
1500: went back bunk and put down things.. changed into half U
1515: went back to MPH for talks by Sergeant Major
1800: Dinner
1900-2100: the CLTs told us their marking scheme for our mutuals test
2230: Lights Out

(8Sept)Day2
0500: woke up
0615: reported at Blk246 and fall in
0630-0645: PT
0645-0715: Breakfast
0715-0730: went to blk245 to draw arms(rifles)
0800-1030: Arm Drill Mutuals Test
i did not prepare a lesson plan.. but i passed...
1030-1130: slacked
1200-1300: Lunch
1330-1545: Foot Drills Mutuals Test
mine was quite short but i still passed.. Thanks to Sir Azmi
1545-1700: Sharing session with Sir Azmi.. learnt alot from him
1730-1830: Dinner
1900-2045: Sharing sessions with Sir Boon Kiong, Sir KuanHou, Sir Surnesh and Sir Ahmad Muslim
2100-2130: Supper at Blk246 and run through of Day3's RO

(9Sept)Day3
0530: Woke up
0630: Fall in
0630-0700: Breakfast. After i finish my breakfast, Sir Nessar came and told me to find my POS also known as overall IC. i went to find her. then she told me that i will take over her as the POS. i was so shocked. cos the job was so stressful and alot of people hated the POS.
0715: Went to Blk245 to draw arms again..
0745: Went back to MPH for a lecture by Sergeant Major
0800: A demo by the CLTs of how a squad is formed.
0830-1000: Advanced Arm Drill lesson by the CLTs
1000-1130: Advanced Foot Drill lesson by the CLTs
1200: Lunch
1245: Went back to bunk for clean up
1330: Went to MPH with all our things for a lecture by Sergeant Major.
1400: Course AAR (After Action Review)
1530: Run through of the Graduation Ceremony
1600: Ceremony Started
1620: Ceremony ended
1630: Went to Upper Parade Square to receive our ranks!
1700: Went for the refreshments and left HQ.

~~~~~~END OF COURSE~~~~~~

2009-09-05T14:51:00.002+08:00

hello...
what a nice day today is? Lols.. its the start of the September holidays... this means that my O Levels are coming in about a years' time... lols.. got back my result yesterday... quite happy with it... Lols... never failed one.. haha.. same grade for English, Chinese, E Maths and Science.. All got C6.. Lols.. bad right? haiz.. then Combined Humanities got B4... POA got A1.. my first A1 sia... so happy... hahahaha...nothing much to post... cant help but think of her... i seriously dunno what i'm doing this few days... shall end here... byes...oh ya... going for SSC in about 2days time... very scared and nervous... Lols... hope can get one of the best award...

Lalalals

2009-09-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

Hihi! I'm bored... So I'm just spamming? =X opps. yeps, im crazy again =-=" Emo emo emo. Haiz. Dun like sia.. After emo everytime siao siao one.. Lols. So here I am, SIAO. Okays. Once again, I dunno wad to post. LOLs. Hmmms.. Ehs? I really nth to say? Wows, great =-=" Let's see.. If Kevin's online he would say he emo-ed again today and regretted his actions? Hmmms.. I dun wan say lahs, cos I dunno he wan write mahs. So I summarise it. LOLs. So many people emo-ing recently...
Ehs! I notice tis place suddenly become I siao siao time come post de sia... Aiyoyo... I'm like destroying Kevin's blog... Eee! I dun wan be so bad! xD Hmmms.. I go liaoz bahhs... Continue and I'm really crazy... Tag tag more kayes?:D I'm like a 3 yr old kid =-=" Tag more h0rss!!!:D Byesbyes!!!:DD

------ Updated by Claire ------

2009-08-31T21:54:00.002+08:00

haiz... emo-ed for quite a while when i reached home.. reason?
RuiShen dropped his rifle during the performance today.. that everyone was comforting him.. then i thought to myself, if i dropped my rifle during the performance, would anyone care? an obvious answer came to my mind... NO! haiz.. this made me feel dam extra in ncc.. haiz. since its over, i shan't talk about it anymore... feeling better now... finally.. haha...

2009-08-28T21:17:00.002+08:00

haiz... mixed feeling again.. i dunno why... i dun wan to feel this again... sent for Senior Specialist Course.. went for the briefing today... sounsd fun... the only boring part is day2.. the testing day.. haiz.. Going for rehearsal tomorrow.. wont get to see her anyway.. i dunno why, i'm feeling guilty almost everyday.. haiz.. i wan to get this feeling out of me...
shall post a short one today... kena of tired this few days...

2009-08-25T22:05:00.002+08:00

haiz.. what a bad day today is... i'm supposed to be happy now.. yet suicidal thoughts fill my mind.. i dunno why.. perhaps it was my expectation that causes it? i dun wan to think of this anymore! i'm supposed to be cheerful everyday... yet i dunno why i cant bring myself to smile.. there are alot of things in my heart.. i dun think i will ever let them out.. haiz..
trying very hard not to emo... trying my best now... if i fail, i might as well go and die.. i'm just a stupid failure... haiz... my wrist hurts now.. i think its cos i too long never do push-up already.. then miss lim suddenly tell me do, my wrist got hurt... enduring all the pain now..

LOL

2009-08-24T21:55:00.007+08:00

Hi?? Hmmms... I oso dunno wad to write lehhs.. Kevin ask me update.. I guess PW correct so I update. LOL.. Okays, I'm lame. Aiyos, I really really dunno wad to write lahhs.. Oh, i got something to write:
Dun make Kevin angry this few days/week cos he's emotional unstable..
LOL! Ahh! Kevin! Dun scold me arhhs.. I no offence h0r..
LOL.. I know I'm MAD =X Hahas:D Aiyoyo.. Seriously dunno wad else to say... Typing and thinking at the same time and yet I dunno.. LOL:D Alamaks.. He's emo blog i make until so hyper.. Sorrys arh Kevin.. LOL..
Okays lahs, I update liaoz h0rs, tag him more h0r!!! Dun let his blog die. LOL xD
Goodbye peepos!:D

--- Posted by Claire ---

P.S. Got problem so I must write so big.. haiz.

2009-08-15T19:46:00.003+08:00

today is one of the days i will feel dam bored cos i have totally nothing to do as i didn't want to do my homework... i think i slept almost the whole day.. good right? haha.. so boring sia.. missed someone so much that i felt so terrible when she didn't reply my msg... stupid right? haha.. perhaps this is what liking someone is.. the hardship... haha.. enduring one day.. one more to go.. hope it goes fast.. never felt so bored at home.. haha.. i think i have cheered up... but sometimes, i just feel like giving up.. thanks to shuhui for the wonderful advise this moring at about 1.. she woke me up.. made me understand alot of things.. so ya, thanks.. haha.. didn't go for today's pds training for two reasons.. one is, i dun wan to face that idiot. the other is, i really forgotten that there is training today.. so er, Sorry Zul.. didn't wan to miss it.. perhaps it wont be as bad as i thought? same things happening.. make me consider whether to go or not..
CAN YOU ALL STOP LYING TO ME? IS IT SO HARD TO TELL ME THE TRUTH? hope that my life in ncc wont be just lies and shows again.. i really dun like them.. really HATE them alot.. thanks to all Specialists all letting me have my way for so long, please tell me what you wan so that i wont make you all hate me.. let's make YUYING NCC a GOLD UNIT again okay? Lets work together...

2009-08-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

ok... trying my best not to emo this few days.. but sometimes i just cant help it.. i have no interest for studies.. yet when i see the results, i feel so sad.. trying very hard to help her.. today training sucks.. people give me attitude... i was like.....? i told them alot of times, anything not happy, say out.. they just dun wan.. then i punish them, they not happy.. tried very hard not to show that i was unhappy to her.. hopefully she didn't notice.. i was really dam sad and emo.. but i didn't wan her to get affected by me.. so i hid my feelings.. i think she didn't know.. i hope its a good thing.. dunno whether to go back or not.. so hard to decide... haiz..

2009-08-13T23:15:00.003+08:00

feeling so stressed out now.. cant help it.. its 11.15 now.. and its very late.. yet i cant sleep... i'm very very tired... yet i cant sleep... i dunno how to get rid of this feeling.. i'm starting to emo like hell now.. the stress in me is so strong that i can overcome it.. i dunno what to do now! someone teach me! i'm so stressed out!!!!! mixture of feelings just now.. hope that i really can overcome this.. i have no idea how.. let me try it then.. i hope it works for me too.. but if it doesn't, i'm a goner.. i have no regrets now..
after getting my wish granted, i dun feel like leaving now.. i know i have to... they are waiting for me.. perhaps after i change someone? i know its getting nearer and nearer.. i'm scared now.. for myself and her.. i know they'll let me change someone first before taking me away.. so i'll try to do it as soon as possible.. i hope i succeed..

Wishing so hard that you are happy everyday...

2009-08-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday was one of the best days of my life ever... went to claire's house at 9 to meet her.. then take bus go downtown east.. reach there quite early.. but then the queue dam long..
queue about 30mins then buy the tickets for movie.. dam boring sia.. cos can guess the movie ma.. then got some part dam scary.. claire also scared.. haha.. quite cold sia there.. so after the movie, i go eat while claire sit there do nothing.. cos she say she not hungry ma.. then after that, we walk dam long... then found bicycle rental shop.. so rent bike and cycle.. but then, she dun wan cycle too long, so we sit down talk for dam long.. after that, we go return bike... then find another place talk.. haiz.. saw zul and his classmates there, so i act dunno her.. so find zul talk.. haiz.. i told her come find me.. then she listen loh.. haha.. then we go take bus home.. i accompany her home then go home le.. but in the bus, i keep thinking about something.. i think i look dam stress.. haiz.. i still didn't have the courage to ask her face to face.. so i sms her loh.. she say yes.. then i was like.. so surprised.. haha.. i got another surprise just now.. i dunno why it will happen.. i feel quite guilty.. i also dunno why.. i'll try to overcome this feeling soon..

2009-08-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling the change in my life.. forgetting things that i should have forgotten long time ago... today, went for the national day celebrations.. quite boring la.. but okay, i still can endure.. then after that, went home to do things.. then went to Claire's house to meet her.. then bring her go East Coast Park.. funny sia.. anyhow walk also can reach.. joke sia.. then go mac eat lunch.. keep talking talking.. haha.. i think i can be her elder brother.. haha.. then after lunch, went to rent bike then bring claire go bedok jetty to de-stress.. then she say wan go obs there.. so bring her loh.. we cycle past a 'garden' .. she say nice, want take photo so she take loh.. after that, went to the sand there cos she wan write something.. so i follow.. haha.. then go take photo of the castle.. then so buy sugarcane and drink.. then go return bike.. after that, go sit down somewhere and talk.. then go take bus home.. i feel dam bored so i say i walk her home..
i know life's changing.. its obvious.. i really hope it stays this way...

Giving up soon... Hope to recover before i'm a goner

2009-08-04T16:44:00.000+08:00

just came back from school.. i know i'm hated alot there.. i've decided not to go back anymore.. even if i lose my cca points, lose everything i ever wanted, i cant care.. cos i dont.. maybe to people, i'm just a loser.. i'm just someone with attitude problem.. have they put themselves in my shoes before? Sir Hassan told me this, ' you have to look at their family background' i agree.. its true.. despite so many problems, i still came to this point.. i learnt alot of things during the Part A's Camp Forge, and i thought about alot of things too.. i came to realise, everything was a show put in front of me.. nothing was real.. my dream of being a CLT will never ever come true.. Perhaps i've given up on everything.. i know i will get punished when i go to school tomorrow.. i'll face it no matter what.. i dunno what to do now.. i'm really emoing..
Before you condemn a person, ask yourself, does that person wan to do it? Or was he forced to?
No one likes to emo, no one likes to be hated.
Who doesn't like to be well-liked? Who likes to be ignored? Who likes to be lied again and again? Who likes no be treated like a fool?
The Answer for all the questions are 'NO ONE' nobody likes the feeling of being lied or treated like a fool, neither do they like to be hated..

Really emo-ed today.. Never Felt Worst..

2009-08-01T15:13:00.000+08:00

i'm emoing again.. i guess its because i'm listening to emo songs... what caused it? a simple word yet so hard to understand.. 'Love' ... its stupid yet everyone needs it to survive.. there's no love in my family.. that's why i need it so much.. but all i got was hurt.. i'm sorry if i said anything that hurt you... anybody... i'm just so sorry... i know i dun deserve to like anybody.. so i guess i'll stop liking her.. its a hard process yet i have to go through it... life is never perfect for me.. giving up may be the only solution left for me.. i have no idea what to do next... living each day... wasting my life away...

2009-07-25T15:56:00.000+08:00

why is everybody lying to me..? why cant someone tell the truth..? why do i get hurt again and again.. my wounds are getting deeper and deeper each day.. everyday, there's something so hurting that i want to cry.. my heart isn't made of steel.. stop hurting me! the feeling of being cared for is gone.. the feeling of being in love will never come to me..
you all say i always emo in class.. do you think i want to emo? who doesn't want to be cheerful everyday? who likes to emo? i HATE to emo.. i'm so confused.. i'm so hurt.. i'm so afraid now..
i'm so weak yet i have to face so many things.. the things i want are very simple.. i just want to be cheerful everyday and be with the person i like.. it wont happen anyway.. its just a childish dream of mine.. i've no post in ncc now.. perhaps i should just give up on ncc and everything else..

2009-07-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

once again.. those feelings which i feared came to me again.. haiz.. confusing mind everyday..
everyday, feeling so lifeless.. feeling so useless.. haiz... once again, i feel my heart dead.. choosing to forget about love and not love someone yet i longed for the feeling of falling in love.. i longed for someone who loves me and is willing to be with me.. yet i know, its just a childish dream of mine which will never ever come true.. friends are leaving me one by one.. i'm really scared!
the feeling of being loved will never come to me again.. care and concern will never be applied to me again.. perhaps i've changed.. i suppose being in love will be one of the things i cant and wont do..

2009-07-18T11:20:00.000+08:00

hiie.. sorry for not posting for so long.. i didn't use the com for the whole week..
so many things happening to me.. making me so confused.. i suppose i have lost all hope and trust in love.. i fear to love.. maybe i'm not meant to love.. maybe i dun deserve to feel what being in love feels like.. well, i shall accept it.. i know i have alot of weakness and bad points.. i know no one will like me.. what can i do? i've lost everything.. i've become more and more emo.. perhaps its time.. i'll wait for the time to go.. i know it'll be soon.. went for the ASM interview yesterday.. i hope it was okay.. after that, took cab with jian jie and vincent to beach road. Mr Soh sponsor. Thanks Mr Soh! went to take the shirts and brought it back to ncc room.. came back by cab. Mr Soh sponsor. Thanks Again Mr Soh!! it was nice! but then the logo abit too big.. haha...
i shall end my post here..

ByeBye

---Emo-ing in Progress---

2009-07-06T10:53:00.000+08:00

saw someone's blog just now.. i suppose he's talking about me.. i'm not sure, but its 90% talking about me.. well.. its quite true.. i'm hated by alot of people, but something's not true.. i Have friends.. but not as many as him.. the truth is, i dun mind what he say.. even though it may be true, it does not affect me.. haiz... something that i feared finally happened.. perhaps i'm meant to suffer like this..
Let the Sufferings come.. Let me Suffer more.. i have lost Everything.. Including the will to survive.. Death awaits me.. Its a matter of when.. what can i do? let nature take its course.. i shall wait for Death's arrival and welcome him..
i know i'm hated by alot of people.. why are they so timid to confront me? i can accept their insult if they tell me face to face..

~~~Loner Waiting for DEATH~~~